Monday, August 11, 2008

Gilda, Take 3 - and a bit of ranting...

Isn't she puuuuurty???!!!! I'm still not done with her senior portraits, partly because of my vacation. :D Can't say I regret doing that though, EVERYONE knows I needed it.

Now, totally unrelated, but just on my mind this morning... Warning - rant ahead.

Why is it that you can bend over backwards for some people, go allll out of your way... and then what do you get in return? Nuttin. Nada. Zilch. I take that back - sometimes they'll even go to the trouble to say some snide remark, which is basically just a slap in the face. I can't tell you the times in my life this has happened - and every.single.time. it shocks me. I wish I could be the kind of person that could just let things go... that could say "you know what - you aren't gracious, you don't appreciate me, and you don't DESERVE what I'm doing here..." but I can't. I can't bring myself to say it, because it's MEAN. I just keep on doing, doing, doing - apologizing, trying harder... because when it comes down to it, I think that their actions are just proof that I'm not doing *quite* enough.

Seriously?? Who am I kidding? Why spend energy on people who could care less? Yet here I sit, feeling guilty...

I think it's time for a change. Time to expend my energy on people who care, on people who recognize it, appreciate it, and express it. Time to kick the people off my priority list that haven't put me on theirs, and time to move myself up on my own list.


:D Happy Monday!


Stephanie said...

All of the pictures from this session are absolutely GORGEOUS. I'm so proud of you for getting back into things and I bet just being out there doing what you love is therapeutic in itself.

I have been thinking about you! Take care girl. :)

Terri said...

Great Pictures, your right she is gorgeous...........Hope the rant wasn't about ME, your sweet Mama.
You are right, I have learned if you did something wrong all you can do is apologize, learn from it and move on. If that person can't take it then it becomes their problem, because you have done all you can. So move on, and be happy because you never know which day is going to be your last. Learn to enjoy each and everyone of them.
Okay, sermons you